Wondering

It is good that i still can be wondering...wondering something.
I dunno. My life is so complicated, no no, i mean i am complicated with my own life.
Sounds so ridiculous, huh? But it's true! I am so complicated with what I am thinking, what I am wondering, what I am doing and even what I felt! I can't really convincing myself that everything is just fine, absolutely okay, nothing is going wrong....I really can't, CAN'T!!
I yell at myself, yell at people that care me and the people that I care! So whatever~

So, life is what? What is feelings feel like? What does it means by okay??
Why answers is so important?
Why??

PS: I love GOD, and i do know and understand everything that i having now is so precious and I really THANK GOD for that. So STOP posting your comments about what should I feel about! Thank you so much and I appreciate it!