Can i have my life back??

Can i have my life back??
I'm pretty sick for these few days...
And then i found out something is sooooo "interesting" around me.
Okay, so here is the problem that i am facing. I am damn sick and needed some rest at home and also some respect that i thought i can get from others. But then hell no...my work funnily and seriously does not allow me TO GET SICK! Why i said so?? Okay, let me tell you this.. My mummy help me to called to the "S music center " for a leave and then my mummy get annoyed by the sound of the boss because the boss sounds obviously that I am malingering. And few minutes or don't know few seconds later..my colleague called again, to asked whether i am coming or not and asked me to contact my students myself. It is no big deal you know, but IT IS definitely a BIG BIG DEAL for me when I AM SICK! Hell you~ I am damn sick here, lying on bed.. feel so unwell and so sooo SICK! And that is why i called my mummy to help me take a leave. Otherwise what do you think a sick person can do??? IT IS SOOOO IRRITATING~
And the "P music center" pulak... i know its my fault that i make my promise to teach at Sunday, this is because i think i feel better at noon... But who know i got fever back at the evening, so that is why i called back to cancel the Sunday class! I said I am sorry~ I need rest!! Monday will be my exam! I need to be recover~~ Why BLAME ME?? It is not MY PLAN TO GET SICK!

I study from monday to friday or sometimes is monday to saturday...
I need to work at Saturday and Sunday...
I can't sick cause there is not even a day to left for me to sick or....rest~
I can get sick... but i can't take a leave??
I can have many reason to take a leave...but all think that i am malingering??!
I should be responsible in everything.
I wanted to resign but you guys have so many reason to ask me to stay back.
I wanted to resign but you guys pushing me about those responsibilities.
I studying arts...but working in all music field.
I need to study...its my responsibilities, right??!
I need my time.
I know you all don't need yours.
I hate when all of you comparing someone's to someone's.
Everyone is different.
Please think that i am who you love...Not who i am working to~~
I do appreciate everything... Thanks!