莫名的无聊起来
最近情绪特别的不稳定 思想特别的混乱
可能 可能是因为挫折太多了吧 还是因为我太贪心了呢?
也许 心情转换一下 感觉 也就变了呢？
又或者 观点和角度变了点 心情 也就稍微好了点呢？
也许和或许 融合在一起 可能世界也变得美好了许多呢～
我总在 烦恼和痛苦中徘徊
总总道理 都能从我脑海里读出
可却只停留在脑海里 却闯不进我心里
我也有说服人的道理 可是道理总说服得了别人 却对自己失去了功效
我还在寻找 寻找解决疑惑的药方
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20090508
Today~~
I don't feel like sleeping anymore, not that i'm not sleepy...i just don't feel like closing my eyes and rest my mind.
My mind always functioning...keeping myself busy as usual.
My mind always busy thinking, dreaming and whispering to myself. I just can't make it stop. I mean...it wouldn't just stop automatically, it only starts automatically. It slowly stops when its tired. But mostly it won't feel stop even when its exhausted. I don't know why, my mind keep on thinking...wondering things that will be happen and the reasons or causes for some stupid incident. Maybe i just can't really believe in this realistic world that i am living now...am i? What if and another what if....all confusing and always whispering into my mind...disturbing my mind.
I just don't know what I want and what will I get..
I am sleepy...really very tired and exhausted.
But I just don't feel like sleeping~
don't know why~
My mind always functioning...keeping myself busy as usual.
My mind always busy thinking, dreaming and whispering to myself. I just can't make it stop. I mean...it wouldn't just stop automatically, it only starts automatically. It slowly stops when its tired. But mostly it won't feel stop even when its exhausted. I don't know why, my mind keep on thinking...wondering things that will be happen and the reasons or causes for some stupid incident. Maybe i just can't really believe in this realistic world that i am living now...am i? What if and another what if....all confusing and always whispering into my mind...disturbing my mind.
I just don't know what I want and what will I get..
I am sleepy...really very tired and exhausted.
But I just don't feel like sleeping~
don't know why~
20090507
Emo-ing
Phew~~
Its been almost few weeks.. er, months that I was still thinking of just to quit my studies. But still...I attend classes and doing well performance (almost) in the pass although I feel like to escaping~~ Haiz...Idiot me!
My heart is dead...I have no feelings now...Just whatever it is to be~~
I don't really care about what's happening and what will be happen and whatever it is I just don't think I care about anything anymore! The world is changing, revolution-ing and life is forward-ing. Everything is still working while me...I don't feel like growing~~
Pei Li sms me says her lecturer told them that if you do something that you don't like is called growing up. So is it true?? I don't feel like i'm growing up right now...maybe not now~
Why people must to be force or should I say why people MUST going through the process of GROWING UP? Arghh~~ A grown up people... Us... Whatever...
Why am I so passive nowadays ?? Can't tahan... Sigh~~
Whatever it is to be, I am still that typically emotional gurl~~
Hate it!
Its been almost few weeks.. er, months that I was still thinking of just to quit my studies. But still...I attend classes and doing well performance (almost) in the pass although I feel like to escaping~~ Haiz...Idiot me!
My heart is dead...I have no feelings now...Just whatever it is to be~~
I don't really care about what's happening and what will be happen and whatever it is I just don't think I care about anything anymore! The world is changing, revolution-ing and life is forward-ing. Everything is still working while me...I don't feel like growing~~
Pei Li sms me says her lecturer told them that if you do something that you don't like is called growing up. So is it true?? I don't feel like i'm growing up right now...maybe not now~
Why people must to be force or should I say why people MUST going through the process of GROWING UP? Arghh~~ A grown up people... Us... Whatever...
Why am I so passive nowadays ?? Can't tahan... Sigh~~
Whatever it is to be, I am still that typically emotional gurl~~
Hate it!
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