2010

i do cry a lot last time.i mean it...really damn lot!
almost every night or every hour, its like every things worth to make my tears to drop...

nowadays, i don't cry that much..
i do cry when watching teles and movies and books, but not when i depress, sad and angry...
i started to feel weak to cry, i can't cry!
i don't know why~
anything happened, i get weak in my soul and crying does not help at all!
i feel helpless and so emotional with everything and words spinning in me right now, i can't control the temper or the feelings that is inside me.

i feel nothing with myself either...
i keep on get the failure me to present in this world! and maybe that is why i worth nothing to everyone and i suppose i worth something to them!

i love to write, i hope that someday at least i will be writing something worthy or maybe i can come out with some article or stories that always hiding in my silly head.
i love music, i hope i am a musician, that everyone agree with me having some talent in it, i doubted that it won't really happen now or ever...
i love arts, anykind of art like fashion, interior, graphics... i wish someday i will become somebody that inspiring others or at least people will agree with my achievement or so...

however, currently i am a nobody with no people agreeing with whatever that i experienced~
screw me and just wish me have more time in my day dreaming!